I also need you, to understand, that my intelligence is much higher than by grammar.
Don't under sell yourself D.R. yo're intelligence isn't just high...its genius. After all you've managed to generate over 30 pages of comment from us lot over what appears to be a relatively straight forward set of questions.
That takes talent!
I have to admit that I stopped reading after page 10 and skipped to your last post. What is clear to me is that you have a set of issues in your neighbourhood that you want to solve. This is admirable. What is also clear is that for one reason or another you have a particular set of challenges that makes solving these issues very tricky. I sympathise. I wish I could offer some constructive assistance but I'm at a loss as to where to begin. I also though of attempting to summarise your posts in the hope that it may help to state your case, and in return gain some advice. But...and I'm being honest here...its just so time consuming.
And I think this is the nub of the problem.
Communicating
with and
for you...is hard work. As such getting your point across clearly and relatively concisely, whilst not alienating your audience if what is keeping you back.
Is there any way that you could enlist the assistance of an some form of advocate to simplify your thoughts and help communicate them on your behalf.
I apologise if this sounds belittling. I don't mean it to, I know you are intelligent enough to know what you want to say, its just that the bit that involves getting it out of your head, is a little messed up.
If my suggestion is offensive, I apologise...but my advice is focus on the objective not the path.