RussellZero
Wannabe Stravati
- Location
- New Forest, Hampshire, UK
Lovely ride out today - bit longer than usual for a midweek lunch time but it was so nice out there.
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Great to have you back.23 September. Chasing leaves....
Turner (the painter) wrote that British weather creates more inspiration for painting than anywhere else on earth. Although I don't know how much he travelled, I am willing to go with that. Watching grey bottomed clouds tower above the woods in the distance, bands of sunlight illuminating the fields, leaves chase themselves down the lane intoxicated with their release from tree duty, I can see what Turner meant. I like the autumn and its shifting light and rich colours. I may change my mind tomorrow of course, when it is forecast to rain all day.
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The bike has been repaired since my crash in July but now it creaks and squeaks all the time. It isn't the bottom bracket. The pedals are greased. When the wind blows I can't hear it but deep in the lanes, out of the wind, standing on the pedals to get up another little steep bit, the whole orchestra of groans rises with the altitude. The bike is distressed and I don't know why.
As for me I am just frightened of bends and drops, braking much more, watching the surface for mud, leaves or grit, conscious of the pain in my still unhealed collar bone and the stark warning from the consultant that another crash will "b*gger it up completely".
How to explain then the compulsion to ride, the need for the bike, the visceral desire to turn pedals, feel the wind, to move across the landscape freely, like wearing seven league boots that never touch the ground. I shouldn't be doing this but I can't stop. Being unable to stop was the cause of my problems in the first place. Too much speed, too little care. The bike is going to nag me all ride about it.
Leaving Truro it is downhill on a fast A road and my promises to Madame Crow to ride slowly are forgotten as I try to keep up with the passing cars. Speed is a drug. The hedgerows blur in my peripheral vision and the tyres hiss with excitement. Then off the main road and up the lane, the operative word being 'up', to the quiet village of Probus. Spin, squeak, spin, groan, spin, squeak, the mothers picking up children from the nursery look up in alarm as I pass, lights flashing, bike complaining, breath ragged. Perhaps it is the imagined slipstream of corona virus left behind me that alarms them? No, it is the noise. The children point. I wave.
Into the quiet lanes now, tree tunnels of green light, patchy sun burning through the gaps where leaves turn and twist down towards me. In the dips in the road the recent rain has piled up gravel and grit into wheel slipping drifts. I think about this. I think about cars appearing suddenly from the many blind bends. I am so busy thinking that I fail to see a red Kia until it is just a few yards away. The driver has stopped for me, luckily. I berate myself. I imagine Madame Crow berating me. My bike groans and squeaks. It is probably also berating me. It seems to have suffered life changing injuries in that crash.
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A steep drop into Ladock village and then it is up, up and away, the Wahoo telling me what it is going from 5% to 8%, then 12%, then 14%.I keep my eye on the road and don't look ahead. I don't want to see how steep it is. Now some downhill into Ladock Woods and then a long uphill that starts at 3% and steepens to 8% and goes on....and on.
I reach the roof of Cornwall some 700 feet higher than I was and in the distance, across the patchwork of fields and woods I can see the glint of the sea and the north coast. There is a house here called 'Ocean View'. Madame Crow is always impressed by the name when we come this way - "not Sea View" she says, "which would be too tame for this viewpoint towards America, towards the wild green Atlantic".
From here it is across to the south coast, the rolling landscape of bright green fields and woods, the wind now turned more towards me, willing me on as my legs feel the weight of too many contour lines, the dark line of hills that make up the central moors reflecting the dourness of the sky.
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Click, squeak, groan, the bike grumbles its way along the lanes. It seems to have become heavier, slower, less willing to climb, less willing to sprint. Perhaps it is me. To enjoy the ride I need to stay in the moment and not calculate how far is left to go, how many hills. It begins to work and I start to notice the small things again, the texture of the hedgerows, the shape of the clouds, the number of shades of green in one grassy bank, the pattern of light on the road.
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The last hills up and into Truro go more easily than I feared and I have got used to the cacophony of noise from the bike. At least I don't need a bell as every pedestrian turns to see what monster is approaching.
This afternoon I will put the bike up on the stand and see what is wrong with it. Remove the pedals and re-grease them. The bottom bracket is new. I will lubricate everything. Tomorrow I see the consultant again - maybe he can do something about the clicks and groans from my collarbone, the dull ache. I suspect "not cycling" may be the prescription.
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What a fantastic post. Just make sure you feign sudden deafness if he mentions "Not cycling".I will lubricate everything. Tomorrow I see the consultant again - maybe he can do something about the clicks and groans from my collarbone, the dull ache. I suspect "not cycling" may be the prescription.
23 September. Chasing leaves....
Tomorrow I see the consultant again - maybe he can do something about the clicks and groans from my collarbone, the dull ache.