I've been given a shredding machine and I decided it was time to dispose of my old diaries. Most of the entries are really boring, some are depressing and some are embarrassing, but I forced myself to look back at a few pages before the shred-fest.
The entries about the time of
The Big Relationship Bust-up are
very revealing! I drank 8 cans of strong lager on the night of my 'divorce' and got up the next morning feeling emotionally and physically dreadful.
I decided that the boozing would have to stop for a while or I'd probably drink myself to death in less than 12 months. In fact, I gave it up for a couple of years.
I went right off my food and was only eating 1/2-2/3 of what I'd been eating before. I genuinely did have the sensation that my stomach had shrunk. Normally I have no problem polishing off a Chinese takeaway by myself. I got to the point where I was throwing 40% away. Unheard of in my household!
I became an exercise junkie. When the weather was okay through the winter, I'd do road rides and MTB rides several times a week, putting in hard efforts throughout each ride. On cold, wet days I got on my turbo-trainer instead. I was putting in efforts which were so hard that I almost threw up. Sometimes I'd ride on it for over 2 hours. (Previously I'd struggled to manage an hour.) When I dismounted, I could hardly walk. I'd crawl up the stairs to get washed and changed. I'd go to bed early.
So what was the result of those changes? Well, I looked through about 2 months of diary entries and nearly every week I lost 3 pounds in weight. I started at well over 14 stone, but soon it was 13 st 12 lbs, then the next week 13 st 9 lbs, then 13 st 6 lbs and so on.
By the following summer I was down to 11 st 10 lbs and looking really gaunt. I was very fit. I spent the entire year not using the granny ring on my road bike or mountain bike. Mountains felt like hills, hills felt like draggy climbs, draggy climbs felt like flat roads, and flat roads felt like gentle descents. It felt
goooood!
It wasn't a happy time but it did show me what could be achieved in 6 months with the right motivation.
The trouble was - when I started to feel a bit happier, I went back to my old habits, and therefore to my old physique! I wish that I could be motivated to get fit and be happy at the same time ...