Fubar
Guru
Never a truer word was spoken (or typed)!
On a serious note, I actually feel quite guilty for putting my folks through that. I know it was an accident, but I probably got a bit carried away with the adrenaline rush (I'd only ever got it up to 40mph before, so 50 was a bit scary tbh, but exciting at the same time). With hindsight that seems pretty wreckless, especially as I'm fairly new to road-bikes and I didn't know the road at all. My mum, who's been amazing about the whole thing, has been encouraging me to get back on my other bike and to replace the Triban 3 asap* as it's something I enjoy doing, just to be a bit more cautious next time! I keep having flashbacks of the few seconds before the crash though and it's not put me in a good place mentally, so I don't know how soon I'll be riding anywhere hilly but I'm sure I'll get back in the swing of things given time...
*The frame looks gubbed, so a replacement seems like the only realistic option.
No matter the cause it was an accident, chalk it down to experience and move on - it doesn't do to dwell on anything and the main thing is you are fine. Get the other bike dusted off and go out and do 5 miles, then 10, 15, etc. - and get your name down for the Perth ride so you have something soon-ish to aim for and harder to pull out of. It doesn't matter what bike you turn up on, from memory there are no fast downhills (just rolling countryside) and you will be with your mates. A nice bunch of flowers for your mum and a bottle of something strong for your dad to say thanks will soon smooth over any lingering feelings