Given the option I would rather have chronic illness than death.
I would definitely
NOT!
When I was very ill I got to the point where I seriously questioned whether I wanted to carry on. I was so weak that I couldn't read, listen to music, watch TV, use the computer, talk to anybody, have the light on, have the curtains open, or eat more than a couple of mouthfuls of food a day.
After more than a month of drifting in and out of sleep, having nightmares when asleep, and being terrified when I was awake, I'd had enough. But then,
finally, I
did start to get better. If things had
not improved I doubt that I would have stood even another 3 months of it before topping myself***.
*** Actually, I probably couldn't have managed it without help... I'd have asked for a 1-way ticket to Switzerland or some other country more enlightened than the UK.