1st mass start race for a while bag the badge Hilly reverse ,30+ in the pen , survived the 1st lap comfortablely in a front group of 20 ,thought I was playing it tactically brilliant never at the front cruising at the back ,Until it kicked off on the rolling section before the drop to the sprint ,a split appeared 4 riders in front I hesitated waiting for others to close it nothing happened , I had to jump make a big effort over the last bump and downhill over the sprint to just latch on as the pace picked up and I was spat out the back , managed to hold the gap at 2 secs hoping around the steep bend I could close ,out the saddle it put an effort in and legs said no way sit back down had a bit of recovery now in no man's lands . Recovered and caught 2 riders up the climb then got within 3 secs of another before the legs gave out .Rolled over the line 9th ,5th on ZP . Why do I enjoy smashing myself up ?