I cycle to feel the elements, see what's around me, and know that I have actually got to a different destination than a stationary bone on the 'rollers'.
That's the whole point of cycling ,not subscribing to some app or gym membership to get an electronic ride, zwift et al is anathema to me.
A big reason for the way I feel about cycling now ,is that I was knocked off 25 yes ago, subconsciously this has affected me, or rather it has for real, back in my day club cycling, i rarely failed to turn out to go cycling, despite what it was doing outside.
These days ,traffic conditions have been steadily getting worse, encroaching on what we're relatively safe routes.
I now lack the self reliance and confidence I had then, I would have thought nothing off crossing Central London or any busy town, riding fixed or freewheel.
That's the nub of the matter for me, despite me trying to find ways around the problem,
I have essentially lost the 'mojo' to want to ride, understandable ,I think given I was off work for 6 months