nigelnorris
Well-Known Member
- Location
- Birmingham
I'm sick to death of my own stupid style of addiction, I just can't find a way around it.
I smoked heavily from mid teens to age 40 then quit. For five days, Friday night came around and I had a beer and simply had to have a fag to go with it. Same on Saturday night. Then didn't smoke for five days, till Friday and Saturday night. Repeat for 6 years now.
It's driving me insane, I feel absolutely no cravings or withdrawal whatsoever, even when in the company of people smoking, until I get a beer on, then willpower just goes out of the window.
I'm doing it now. Just got dinner on, not going out tonight so there's a bottle of wine to enjoy in front of the TV. Ten marlborough light will last me tonight and a couple left for tomorrow when it starts over again.
Stupidy stupidy stupidy.
I smoked heavily from mid teens to age 40 then quit. For five days, Friday night came around and I had a beer and simply had to have a fag to go with it. Same on Saturday night. Then didn't smoke for five days, till Friday and Saturday night. Repeat for 6 years now.
It's driving me insane, I feel absolutely no cravings or withdrawal whatsoever, even when in the company of people smoking, until I get a beer on, then willpower just goes out of the window.
I'm doing it now. Just got dinner on, not going out tonight so there's a bottle of wine to enjoy in front of the TV. Ten marlborough light will last me tonight and a couple left for tomorrow when it starts over again.
Stupidy stupidy stupidy.