Hey 531a!
Just noticed this thread, hope you have survived christmas and new year. I am a user of mental health services and have had mental health problems for 25 years now! I am also a senior mental health nurse and specialist practitioner, please see your GP...you don't have to agree to anything. Depression is an illness and can be treated, eventually it self heals as do many of the illnesses we receive treatment for, as with migranes, flu, infections etc., we seek medical advice, take medication, ask for help from professionals, friends, family and strangers. Depression is no different, there are many different medications and interventions that may help you. Those which may be useful to you will depend on your individual needs, to get the help you need to do this you must talk to someone.
For certain - things will get better, your life will be better, you will feel positive and happy again.
I hope you post again soon.
PM me anytime.